In the long journey of life, we can become obsessed with completions. We can become obsessed with meeting our goals. We can become obsessed with obtaining the ends we searched for, and forget to rest and replenish along the way.
When life looks after us, by ‘throwing a spanner in the works’, by presenting us with obstacles that slow our progress, or by creating setbacks that make us stop and bide our time, we can get upset or feel restless or frustrated because we are no longer progressing along the paths we’ve set ourselves.
It’s hard to see, then, that these pauses in progress are for our own good. It’s hard to understand that the cosmos, in its greater wisdom and wider viewpoint, has seen our exhaustion before we even felt it, caught up as we were in our ambitions or inspiration, and has played the ‘wise parent’ in forcing us to rest and recuperate a while.
In those times, all we can see is that we are not making headway, that we are not becoming the success that we hoped to be, and we begin to build scenarios in our heads that these pauses are measures of failure, of lack of worth. or of an inability to achieve.
When life is moving forward and good signs are coming in that our dreams and hopes are accessible, we have no doubts or lack of faith. We build on these with great enthusiasm. Yet the valleys, the ditches, and the pauses too easily rattle that optimism, destroy that faith, and plunge us into darkness.
When all is good, we have a great belief in ‘things greater than ourselves’. When things become what we see as ‘bad’, we too easily wonder where the ‘goodness’ went and what we did wrong to deserve this circumstance.
As a child plays, they are happy in their play. They create and are amused, and delight in every moment. They don’t want to stop enjoying their actions or exploring their days, but the parent calls them to the table to sup, or to bed to sleep, and the child grumbles and complains. Yet the food replenishes exhausted energy, and the sleep revitalizes depleted cells. All is actually good in these pauses, and goodness comes from these reins.
When things no longer go well or go your way or as you planned, you can easily begin to explore possible errors and imagine that some dastardly flaw is making itself seen – but often the truth is that the cosmos is simply protecting us from ourselves, even though the way that protection comes at times may be through extreme circumstances.
So easily is success replaced by fear, if we let it. It should not be so hard to have faith, or to keep trust going.
As children, we trust our parents, even as we rail against them for putting us to bed because we wanted to play all night. We believe in their wisdom.
I needed rest and respite. I wasn’t taking it.
Now, the world has brought natural disasters, and things breaking down. I am forced to reassess, realign, slow down, rethink, and to measure myself and my processes.
Through the wisdom of the cosmos, I have been ‘put to bed‘, where I will ‘sleep’ until I am refreshed and ready for a new day of wonders.
I am taking a brief ‘time out’ from the ‘road of life‘ to ‘camp out and count the stars’.