I have a daily ritual of chanting mantras. I use a set of 108 prayer beads to count each mantra set and do one full round. It takes me about an hour to complete the task, and then I meditate.
I never used to chant mantras so regularly, nor meditate every day, even though I believe in the efficacy of such rituals and actually create prayer beads that I sell to others. But after my life became more assailed than usual, I felt I needed a bit more help.
There are many in the world who follow similar rituals, regularly. Some of them buy my prayer beads. (Some just wear them).
At the suggestion of an indian guru, my mantras hail the vedic gods, Ganesha, Shiva, and Lakshmi – but they could be to any gods or goddesses, or to one god, or none at all.
Mantras are simply prayers invoking divine energies (creation energies), and divine energies don’t have to have a face or a name.
In my experience and beliefs, the essence of god has many faces and many names, and these are represented in every faith or religion throughout the world – and even in the faith people have in themselves or in just living, as atheists and agnostics do.
When I first began my mantra rounds, I was calling Shiva in his form of Bhairava. Bhairava is a fiercer aspect of Shiva, but more actively protective, which the guru thought I needed at the time. But as time passed, I felt that the energy was too strong and too forceful, and was not so good any more, so today I just pray my mantras to the all-encompassing Shiva and let him (the god) decide what form of his I need in my life.
As well, I added a joyful round of mantras to Vishnu/Krishna before closing that section with a Namaste to them all. And then finished with the buddhist ‘Om Mani Padme Hum’ mantras, sending out waves of pink healing energy into the world, to give something back…
It’s not always easy to stay focused during my mantra rounds. Thoughts come and go even as I am uttering the words and names. I find myself constantly trying to refocus on the multiple candle flames I light in the room, or to breathe in the incense to reawaken myself, even though I always begin my mantra sessions with deep pranic breathing.
I think it is the higher vibrational energy that does it. My body gets more worked by it, and when I am so busy in my days or in my thoughts, already, it’s a natural reaction to drift, or even to nod off to sleep for a fraction of a second (more likely to happen when I do my mantras in a pre-dawn session).
I sometimes feel frustrated when that happens, because I think it is disrespectful to divine energies – though ‘they’ are telling me it’s okay, and that such thoughts belong only to human beings and the realm we live in. (Apparently, the divine is much more accommodating).
When I first started my mantra rounds, I used to focus extremely well, fired by the needs that began them. I would bring great concentration to bear on manifesting better conditions, and would quickly be flushed with a greater sense of empowerment, and noticed very quick changes going on in the world around me, afterwards.
Over time, again, I felt that such concentration was too forceful, and that things were not happening as naturally as they should. The sense of power also made me over-forceful in my daily relationships, causing friction, which I didn’t like.
Today, I am quieter and gentler in my chanting, but that also means I am more likely to drift or nod.
I contemplated this problem during my rounds, and as usual received an answer. I was told to not worry about focusing on manifesting the good energies of each divine being I was chanting to, but to just ‘sing my world into being.’
I was told to not worry about outcomes, and just trust that what needed to happen would happen. So I did, and after that some nice and interesting things began to happen in my life, bringing more hope back.
But then I began to be concerned about this ‘singing my world into being.’ I thought – what if I sung something quite ‘wrong’ into being? What if my drifting thoughts and micro snoozes set some ‘darker energy’ free to do its work?
I was surprised at the reply I got to those thoughts. I was told to trust myself. I was told to believe in my self. I was told to ignore the flaws and failings of my daily life, the ‘trips’ in my personality, the fallibility of my tongue, or the ‘breezes’ wafting my emotions.
I was reminded that the gods do not need to clear away distractions to do their work . To them, the noise of life was ‘white noise.’ No different to that of children trying to climb onto your lap when you are working. They just don’t think about it, and the work gets done. Like the parent of the child, they automatically deal with the ‘child’ whilst keeping focus on the work that needs to be done. It is the focus that counts.
It is said that just saying or hearing the mantras will set their energies in motion. But I wondered, nevertheless, how well my mantras were being set in motion if I was not really thinking of them while uttering them, or if I had nodded off for a moment between one set and another? Where was my focus?
Then ‘they’ told me that this was not about my mind. It was not about my heart. It was not about my physical body or its presence in the world. It was all about my spirit, and soul.
It was all about my essence, and the underlying factor of all my beliefs. It was about what my ‘truth’ would ‘sing into being’ if I could have everything the way my spirit or soul wanted it to be, or could imagine it to be.
I had to think about that. Stopped mid mantra to do so. Thought about what my soul aspired to – and realized with surprise that my soul effused ‘goodness’.
You may ask why I felt surprised, but it is simply that, having come so far through the ‘scathings’ of life I really don’t feel that ‘pure’ a lot of the time, any more. Damage has been done, that I felt must surely have ‘marked my soul’, no matter what good things I might still do in the world, or what efforts I make to reconnect with the divine through prayers or mantras.
However, I was ‘told’ that the ‘bottom line of my soul’ is not related to human arguments and conflicts, or to the difficulties that embroil me at times, or that embroil anyone. It is simply the underlying ‘truth’ of my existence.
It is the ‘essence’ of me that rises up from the ‘muddy bottom’ of physical life, through the ‘murky waters’ of thoughts and emotion, to become the ‘lotus flower’ spreading its petals under the ‘divine sun’. It is the ‘cosmic me’.
For life in this world is a schism between the mortal and immortal, the manifested and the never manifested, the physical and the divine.
I am a human being embroiled in the roleplays of a mortal life, but my soul and spirit are divine, and never stop ‘hearing’ the ‘symphony of stars’.
That is how I can focus even though my body is dealing with distractions.
That focus came from the intentions I set up in doing the mantras at all. It came from what I believed them to be, and from what I want from them – and that belief is far more than just being selfish… It is a belief in the ‘ultimate goodness of life’, that arose from everything I ever thought beautiful and everything beautiful I want my life to be.
This stems from my ‘soul’, and comes from hearing that divine music – the ‘symphony of stars’. When I flow with or ‘sing’ that ‘symphony’, I am truly alive and living. Thus, do I ‘become‘ and thus my world is ‘sung into being’.
Having had this mini revelation, I then ‘saw’ Ganesha, dancing so freely, enjoying life just for the fun of being alive.
I ‘saw’ Shiva, sitting in meditation, serenely contemplating all the galaxies in the universe, and accepting life for what it is, ‘warts’ and all, as beautiful.
I ‘saw’ Lakshmi, not as the provider of wealth, but as the kind, generous and compassionate goddess, giving hugs freely and soothing troubled brows.
And I realized that the pure and unadulterated energy of ‘singing the world into being’ was what Krishna and Vishnu embodied. It was love – love of life, love of living, love of making the best of life and living, and love of being.
I loved being alive, for all its flaws and failings, struggles, traumas, and tragedies – and if I had to choose, I would choose just as Ganesha, Shiva, and Lakshmi did in my vision – to dance the dance of life, to be able to meditate serenely without attachment to the whys and wherefores or attaining solutions, and to provide simple nourishment for the assailed souls of all beings so that they could also ‘dance’ and fully be alive.
You may call that a dream, but now I feel good about ‘singing my world into being.’
I trust the energies of my deepest inner self to do what is ‘right’, to create what is ‘good’, and to manifest a better place despite what roleplays of life my mind, emotions and body may play out as I function outside my mantra sessions.
In this way, I feel I am manifesting changes in my life, from the inside out. And when I send out the ‘pink waves of love’, spreading from my ‘pebble in the pond of life’ chanting ‘soul mind’ at the end of each session, I feel like I am sharing something good and wonderful.
This is what I feel it means to ‘get in touch with your source.’ This is what I think it means to ‘know your core essence.’
The deep tap root of life that we brought with us into the world of manifestation is always there. We only need to look for it, and recognize it when we find it. And it is ‘good’, because we do not come into the world with damaged souls.
We come here ‘pure’ and amazed by the magical realm we have entered. And that awe and delight remains present, no matter how old we get or how much assails us, though it can seem to be buried under a ‘dung heap’.
When we ‘sing our world into being’ we ‘sing’ of that ‘magic’ that made us feel happy to greet each day as a child, before any damage ever began…
It’s not a ‘song’ as you physically know a ‘song’. It doesn’t come from your mouth. It doesn’t come from your mind, really. It doesn’t even come from your heart. It’s a soul memory, of who you really are, and who you really were, before you were born.
To gain access to that primal memory – first, you have to remember who you were as a child, before you ever got hurt.
Second, you have to remember how ‘fun’ it was to explore the world you were born into, then.
Third, you have to put aside the ‘damage’ that has happened, since, and just ‘dance the dance of life’, and in that way ‘sing your world into being’, just as you did way back then…
When your soul ‘sings’, all life becomes a symphony. Your mind re-attunes to the ‘music of the universe’. Your body becomes flushed with the ‘harmonies of life’.
What you emit, energizes. What you imagine, becomes. And the ‘lyrics’ of ‘universal love’ flow these words through you –
‘Let all beings be happy!’
That is more than a prayer. It is also an act. It is a manifestation that comes from innate choice, not forced, but natural – the choice of your ‘spirit’, living fully in its truth.
When your ‘spirit’ chooses to be happy, you will be happy, and others will feel your happiness and be affected by it – happiness is infectious.
When your ‘spirit’ chooses to have faith, you will find faith, and others will have faith in you – faith imbues.
When your ‘spirit’ chooses to smile, even when you don’t feel like smiling, smiling soon feels like the natural thing to do, and others will smile with you – smiling is a gift.
These innate choices allow your ‘soul‘ to ‘sing‘ and help you manifest a better life, not only for yourself but also for others – despite the distractions that come from the ‘white noise’ of living.
So, ‘sing’ your ‘world’ into being.
(Remember though: Like a germinating seed, the growth is from the inside to the out… and change takes time, with much occurring on the inside before the leaves of your ‘tree’ unfurl in the world – but there is a powerhouse of energy in that soul!)